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Saturday, September 16, 2006, 3:46 pm
today i had the interview for sc(student counsellor). it was totally crap. i dun mean that the interview is crap but i mean that I am crap. i sort of flop the whole thing... it was done in a group of like 5 people from different classes so after your turn then u remember something to say, you would rather not say cos its like time constrain and people might feel that u trying to steal the limelight...aiya i feel like i dui be qi ms ling lor...is like she gave me this chance to be a sc but i did not cherish the chance well enough in the end i flop the interview... sorry ms ling...
Thursday, September 14, 2006, 4:24 pm
hi im here again.sigh... the exams are coming in like 2 weeks... i dunno what to to lehx... i cant seem to study without getting distracted what to do??? just found out that i only scored 75 for science leh for ca2... missed a* by 5 marks and i dropped by 2 marks! so sad... actually, im more worried abt my chinese, malay and geog. i am not good in chinese and malay(obvious) and i hav a bad feeling that i am going to flop everything leh... is like i dun even hav a real subject that i am good at lor... now maths hav the construction stuff which i am totally bad at...keep missing the degree by +/- 1 lor so unlucky...aiya i guess i just try my best lor... ok i go and try study le bb =D
addition on 16/9: i just found out yesterday that i only scored 9/15 for history,which i always thought that was one of my best subject as i had interest in it! it is like just pass by 2.5 marks! but well, only 30% of the class pass...why compare with the people worse than u u should compare with those better right? the best in class scored like 13/15! 4marks MORE than me!!! i guess i better buck up...
Sunday, September 10, 2006, 3:18 pm
yoz...it's been quite a while since i posted in this blog. has been very busy with NJRC these few days...lol so many days has been spent n doing this NJRC and in the end...we did not win anything...its a very sad thing...gone through so many troubles and so many ups and downs sometimes i dont even know what i really feel about this competition...this competition has made me learn many things and understand people whom i call friends in IT'em, not neccessarily in a very good way. it has made me realise that it is really hard to have true friendship and people whom u think that you understand, actually u dont understand a thing about them. of course, not all the things that i understand about those friends are bad, i also learnt about their strengths and good points as well.
is it really that hard to work for something in a group of people whom u just met? in the beginning, u thought that things will go on well and we can just go slacking, but things turned out the opposite. i know that there is actually nothing much that i can contribute to the group... i know that i am not as good as joanne in para-phrasing research but at least i do research in the web. i know that i am not as good as tj in website but at least i dont play in work time. i know that i not good in mechanical aspects but at least i try to help. i try my best to go for every single sessions, sometimes even skipping my projects. if i am not wrong, i think i only missed one. i try help in all that i can help but there is a limit in my capabilities. i know that what i have done is also probably what the others have also done but can u imagine the feeling when u try to give in your best in all that u can do, only to be called a slacker by your leader? can u imagine the feeling when the competition is nearing and u want to work, only to turn behind and realise that your teammates are playing on the computer? then when they finally want to work, they ask u not to slack and get to work? i try my best not to cut in in the booth design but even the leader dont even know the plans so the leader ask me to cut in when the two booth designers are out, but when they come back, see what i have done, and call me 'more of a nuisance then help'. i really want to step out of his competition but can i?i really dont know what else i can give to this competition...
now that this competition has ended, it is time to give evaluations...what should i say? the truth or the white lie that everything is smooth? i dont want to make enemies, but i dont want to lie... i wonder what would next year's NJRC be like... what should i do? or perhaps what CAN i do...
Sunday, September 03, 2006, 9:09 pm
heys...here is to all my frens who are worried abt me. i m fine now, fever has subsided, just that got a little cough thats all.=) thx for being so concern abt me. tomorrow still have to go school for NJRC... at 8 o'clock leh, so tiring...well, hope everything goes on well for NJRC. ok i gtg, bb
Saturday, September 02, 2006, 5:08 pm
ahh...i finally hav a blog of my own, even though i am very bad in html but well thx wanying for helping me create this blog.
today was parent-child day and it was super BORING! my parents didnt come, they were busy, i had a really bad sore throat when i went to school. the worst thing is, just when i felt that my sore throat was getting better, i had to be down with fever! nothing seems to go right for me today. i could not go for the NJRC presentations and it was the FINALS! i sure hope that we will do well in both the best mechanical and risk taker awards...i also learnt a new word today from Mr Teo. the word is cynical, well it is not really new but you could say i learnt it more in depth. it set me thinking... am i a cynical person? most of the time i seem to be but i just hav to keep looking for the answer i guess... well, gtg now, good luck armada!
Perspectives changes everything =)