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Friday, March 14, 2008, 10:47 pm
WARNING: the following blog post is going to be weird. i apologize before hand but i just nd to vent out all my pissed-angry-tired-hate-ness. BUT im not emo. im just feeling everything but emo. which is prob good enuf. ok the post may sound emo. but im just pissed. and im glad tat im not emo-ing cos it will be much worse.
im tired. not becos the day has been long. i hate every thing tat happened. everything screwed up. the season. the competition. the people. and everything else. i hate myself for allowing it to happen. i hate myself for being so dependent. i hate myself for giving in. i hate myself for not pushing on. i hate her for making it happen to me. i hate her for her all ironic sms. i hate her for spoiling my whole season and screwing up everything. i hate myself for doing everything. i hate myself for not achieving anything. i feel screwed. thought it was good. in the end it turned out like rubbish. i feel like a loser. why did i hav to do this. it just screwed my whole life up. i really really hate her for deciding everything and going all my decision is final. in the end. everything just turned out oppposite. i hate myself for not being firm. always drifting here and there. it sucks. im totally screwed. i really really hate her. im just totally pissed. keep seeing her black face but the way she is handling it is screwing everyone up. just tat she does not noe it.
im so glad its all over. im so glad it is the end. im so glad tat i no nd to face everything anymore. im just going to forget about this season and aim for the next.
at least i learnt something. nvr giv in cos its plain stupid and regretful. nvr depend on the people whom u should noe u cant. nvr expect too much of others cos its just silly and u end up hurting urself.... i really nd to be INDEPENDENT.
